For years, I’ve prided myself on the virtue that I do not
make any judgments. That I do not judge a book by its cover, and a man by his
nature- because each has a story of their own; collective incidents that
shouldn’t be seen as anything but whole that have shaped the subject thus.
Since I’ve never known their story and their motivations behind the actions, I
practiced assuming the best of everybody I met. And while not always did I
understand their reasoning, I never judged because everybody has reasons they
steadfastly hold on to- who was I to decide their validity?
But time and again, we all have experiences which jolt us out
of our comfort zones. That makes us question our basic assumptions- the
foundations of our behavior, which we believe up to that point had
always been just and fair. And we struggle to understand where we had gone
wrong. We seek to know with impatience, in a haste to feed the rattled soul and
nurture it back to normalcy, so that everything feels natural and nothing
contrived.
Just how naïve are we? In our hurry to know it all, to know
it now, we can stumble if we do not slow down and learn that this period of
unrest with the mind is the teacher; that the journey towards the answers is
significantly more important than the answer to the questions.
So let me then share the questions which have been gnawing at
me. And I’d be so eternally grateful to you if you’d indulge me in a discussion
where clarity is not the objective but perplexity and bewilderment.
Perhaps you’ve heard the story of Alexander the Great and the
Gymnosophist. If you did not, let me take the pleasure of introducing you to
the gem that I first came across in a TED talk by Devdutt Patnaik.
Alexander the Great reached the banks of the Indus, after
conquering Persia and found there a gymnosophist, or a naked wise man, who sat
on a rock and meditated all day and gazed at the stars all night. "What
are you doing?" asked Alexander. "Experiencing nothingness," answered
the gymnosophist. Then the gymnosophist asked, "What are you doing?"
Alexander replied, "I am conquering the world." Both chuckled and
parted ways, each one thinking the other was a fool. Both thought the other was
wasting his life.
The disconnect between the two men is a direct consequence of
their different subjective truths constructed by the stories they were exposed
to as a result of their cultures.
Alexander was told the story of heroes and that participation
in battle ensured victory and withdrawal led to defeat. He heard tales of
Achilles, Jason and of Theseus. These were men who made a difference to the
world, who shaped history, who were children of destiny. Alexander was told he
should be like them, spectacular. He should not be like Sisyphus who spent all
his life performing a meaningless, monotonous chore, rolling a rock up a
mountain all day only to find it roll down at night. When he participated in
games, Alexander was told to win, for in the exhilaration of victory one comes
closest to experiencing the ambrosia of the gods. Alexander was told to do
something with his life, for there is only one life and when one dies, one has
to cross the river Styx and if one has lived an extraordinary life, he will be
welcomed to the heaven of heroes, called Elysium.
But these were not the stories that the gymnosophist heard.
He heard about Bharata, who like Alexander , sought to conquer the world and
having done so climbed Mount Meru, in the centre of the world, intent on
hoisting his flag declaring he was there first. But when he reached the
mountain top he found there hundreds of fluttering banners of kings before him
each one of whom believed they had conquered the world first, only to find on
the mountain top that it had been done before. And in this canvas of infinity,
Bharata felt small and insignificant. The gymnosophists would have heard of
heroes like Ram and Krishna who were not two heroes but two lifetimes of a
single hero. For the gymnosophist, there was a river that separates the land of
the living from the land of the dead and one goes to and fro endlessly.
Alexander had heard of a linear, one-life truth, the
gymnosophist had heard of a cyclical, many-lives truth. Thus former is governed
by a sense of urgency and the latter by a sense of repose.
Alexander had to achieve everything he could in one life
while the gymnosophist saw no sense in doing anything while inside this
infinite loop, so he preferred to just meditate and figure it all out.
According to his truth, Alexander was doing the right thing
by waging wars, conquering kingdoms and killing thousands. To the gymnosophist
this was futile.
Now what if there was a farmer in a far-away land, not
exposed to either truths but guided by the simple precepts: to do no evil,
to do good, to help all beings. How then does the farmer decide what is
good and what is evil? If he treated the wounds of an injured lion and nurtured
it back to health and if the lion went on to hunt and kill tens of defenseless
deer for food, was the farmer wrong in helping the lion? And if you call that
karma, that the deer had to die in the lion’s hunt for food, would you say the
same about the girl who was tortured and killed in the most barbaric way at the
hands of rapists? If the farmer saved, unintentionally and unknowingly, the
life of a man who then went on to cause a massacre, on whom do you place the
blame for those lives lost? If doing nothing is the solution to everything like
the gymnosophist believes, then why are we told that the greater sin would be
not to stop evil or wrong doers? How do we decide what is evil and what is
wrong? Is it enough to have good intensions and not take the responsibility for
the implications? If there was a higher power watching over our actions,
supporting the good, why does bad happen at all? Are “good” and “bad”
subjective? Is there no objective reality in them? Then, can it be said that
there’s nothing “good” or “bad” but just difference in opinions? A duality
exists, perhaps? And may be this duality needs to exist for the Universe not to
implode. May be, this duality is the balancing force? That the bad cannot ever
be gone and it will stay, just like the good, till the end of time?
My mind and soul are twirling through a mass of thoughts, and
I find my fundamentals shaken.
May we all find what we are looking for, but are we ready
yet?
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